The Discovery

What is my passion, what do I like, what do I love?

These questions worked endlessly at the back of my head, as I attempted to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I've come to realise these questions work in layers. I'd imagine a child whom have never driven a car before, and the child kept on asking the question, what car do I like? What car do I love? What type of car do I want? It becomes absurd to attempt to answer those questions with its current scope of life.

In my point of view, I asked these questions an endless amount of times and still never got an answer, due to my limited scope of life. In order to expand the horizon, like any ventures, one must venture and experience the vast world for themselves and conclude their own experiences. I made the mistake of taking other's experience as my own. Their lessons became mine, and I lived as if I lived through those experiences. Which made my life blurred between what was real and what wasnt. It's not to say that their experience isn't real, but rather, it is not real from my own perspective.

A person can understand, know, and share their knowledge of farming for instance, but if I never have picked up a shovel nor done any farming in my life. It's safe to say, I dont know anything about farming, I might "know" it, but I haven't experienced it first hand so it's all theory and illusory at that point.

In the end, I had to face the world head-on, as there is no way around it. I had to step out into the world, create my own experiences, fall, fail, get hurt, get beat up, face the harsh reality that's out there. Over a period of time, it made me realize what I do enjoy, and what I dont enjoy. It made me realize, what I want to do with my life, and what I dont.

I would have never been able to "think" of what I'd want to do, unless i've experienced a range of experiences. Through time, that range begins to narrow down into what people so call, "passion," Eventually, I "found" what I loved and began to pursue it with my whole heart.

The interesting discovery about "finding" my passion was, it was always there, and it always will be for everyone. Let's simply put it like this, an apple tree will and forever be an apple tree. A bird, will and always be a bird, a monkey will and always be a bird. "It" will always be "it." What and who I am is rooted in my "DNA" there's no way around it or lying to it. To say a bird can be a dog is foul, but to say a bird can do dog things is rather in line. But, the line is sliverishly thin, and to be able to distinguish the line or not will either make or break reality.

In other words, I can do "whatever" i put my mind towards, but it has to be within my frame. For instance, a bird will fly and is designed to fly. However, it can run, but it is not going to be as effective as a wolf. It can hunt, but differently than a wolf. A bird however, will never be a wolf, nor hunt like a wolf. That's the reality of it. It is what it is, and it is optimized to do what it was designed to do. It can do similar things to a wolf, but it will do it on it's own way or differently according to its own template.

In a similar way, the path of life is similar to everyone, we have similar features like, arms, hands, legs, lungs etc... but our chemical composition is entirely different. What triggers certain emotions, what makes one feel at ease, excited, fear, stressed is different, and from those variations will create certain frames that will be most optmized for that person. Like the bird flying, a wolf hunting, or a cow grazing. Athletic features, high stress tolerance, high creativity, low physical attributes etc... All of these can be improved to a degree, but the composition has been composed and designed within the DNA.

Of course there's outliers and situations where one in a million to beat the odds etc... However, the main point is, one is and will be who they are from the beginning, only slight variations will be created due to their unique experiences. Just like how there's no exactly 2 identical dandelions, flowers, trees, eventhough they grew right next to one another. Their roots will be different, they would have to reach different areas for water sources, and their growth will be different as well.

In conclusion, who I am and what I am is and will always be there due to my unique DNA composition. I will have x,y,z features, I will have a,b,c weakness, d,e,f strength etc etc... It is only when I myself for who I am at the "current state." Can I begin to forge myself into the next iterration, version or upgrade my current condition.