Returning Home
Ever since I left Norway, there's been a strong pull to come back. After 17 years of being gone, I've finally returned.
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11/30/20252 min read
Almost one year ago, I made the move to Norway, and it feels absurd how fast time flies. I arrived here on April 1st, and im 3 months away from reaching the 1 year mark. One year ago, I could not imagine what my life would be like, let alone thinking 5 years ahead. Well, today is just about that, timing.
Tutorial
Its odd to say, but life feels like it just started for me in my 30's. The entire time before that felt like a tutorial, finding out who I am, what I am, and now I get to embrace it, become it.
Now it feels like I am actually playing the character that I am supposed to play, and not this blurred character that still attempts to find out what my abilities are.
Becoming
Although, knowing who I am and what my abilities are, it does not stop here. The game just began, now I have to figure out how I can utilize my abilities in the right places. For instance, suppose I was a druid whom is connected to nature and had healing abilities.
Do I now go around and heal everything that is injured?
Who and how do I know what I am supposed to heal?
How do I make the judgement between what to heal and what not?
These are some of the questions that runs through my mind, and I guess these questions will unfold it self through the journey of 30's.
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In other words, I now know my strength and weaknesses, what do I do with these? The only place that this question falls back on is, "What do I want to do."
Knowing how I want to impact the world or leave my mark in the world, helps a lot with navigating towards my north star.
Embracing
From time to time, I watch birds fly through the skies, and there's times where they glide in almost complete stillness. Their wings dont move, and they just hover mid air. Its in this moment where the hot air rises from the ground, in return cancels out the force of gravity. So they just hover in this pocket of harmony.
These moments reminds me of embracing what you are. Every species in nature embrace and embody what they are, and it's only human beings who has the tendency and the ability to do it otherwise.