Not About Me

Not long after hitting rock bottom, I began to question my life as to what my purpose on this earth is to be. Fighting with my own thoughts and my own existence became exhausting. Not knowing what to do, nor how I felt. Lost in space, lost in the world, lost in the mind. Anything that goes up, must come down, and anything that goes down, must come up. Knowing deep inside, rock bottom is only a mere phase to go by, but not entirely sure when. I had to hold on tight and embrace the journey of the depths.

Not long after going through the depths, November 28, 2023 came a light of inspiration. A thought that managed to illuminate my entire being and the cloud that hovered over my existence. I began to realize my body and mind is not mine to begin with. I is not the body, I is not the mind, I is the awareness of the body, mind, and universe.

In the physical realm, there is a body with an entire factory of chemical compositions powerful enough to create emotional to experience. Whether this process is conscious or unconscious determines the experience of ones journey through life. Each soul are granted with a given gift at brith our living conditions, our caretakers and so on.

It is now then the journey of life begins, each upbringing grants different perks for the individual. Some are granted with wealth, wisdom, or suffering. All of the perks has its pro’s and con’s some are in more favorable when compared in a level of comfort. Otherwise, life is not fair and it is simply life, it does not have cruelty nor kindness. A simple plant has an equal ability to nourish or kill life on earth. Natural disasters and natural beauty are both intertwined with one another.

It is through such recognition that allowed me to see through my own physical suffering and mental confinement. Physical suffering through painful memories stored within the body to prevent it from happening again in the future. Pain of lesson to be carried through evolution of survival. Mental confinement of my own creation in beliefs and attempts of understanding the world.

I who seek pleasure for my own gain creates an experience in which revolves around I. However, the uni-verse is a symphony among trillions of others, in such creates the symphony of life. In my existance and control, I have the option to contribute actions of suffering or pleasure. By default, within my existance and conscious state, creating pleasant surrounding is now a new reality.

The world is not about me, nor has it ever been. Life is ultimately a journey in which all walks of life embarks on. Like any journey, it neither has an end nor a beginning, one can embark on or be barked upon. Dance joyfully through the journey of life is much of ease than simply forcefully walking through life.

Wish you the reader an ease of kindness to yourself, and wholeheartedly warmth of your being.