'In'visible

Feeling frustrated, unknowing how my future looks like nor have any idea of what to do with my life. Unwavering thoughts of disappointment and fear looms constantly over my head.

In my early adulthood, I constantly had a burning sensation and desperation to find out what my passion were. Not quite sure where this idea nor why such need was desired, but I constantly spent my time, energy and effort attempting to find out why I am here on earth, what my purpose is and what to do with my life. It wasn't until my late 20's when I slowly began to wake up to who I am, and what I am.

Truth to be told, who I am and what I am, have always been there. It's not like I suddenly shifted dimension and a new soul took over my body, or did it? Anyhow, imagine an apple seed, on its path of growth, it will always and is an apple tree. No matter how much it wishes to be different nor being told is different. It is what it is from the very beginning, and that beginning is rooted in my DNA.

From the very moment I was born, my entire code of existence, default characteristics (not including how it might evolve), my entire rooted legacies has been passed down to exactly one point of existence, the day of my birth. As such, everything is written in the stars, no matter how much I wish or dream, it will not and cannot change who I am. An apple seed, will be an apple seed, a bird will be a bird, a cow will be a cow. Understanding this was the very first ethereal shift that allowed me to root myself into myself, instead of whishing for endless desires.

I will now demonstrate how prominent and rooted my lineage is, and how it has evolved:

1) My grandfather is a natural artist, he sculpt, paint, and has a 6th and 7th sense when it comes to cooking. My grandmother would be the one who does the cooking, and he would be the one to always season, and finish off the dish to the occasion.

2) My mother unfortunately is not an artist, but she's an amazing chef. She has a deep understanding of the ingredients and can mix and recreate, invent new dishes just by looking and imagining them.

3) My little sister whom is 10 year apart, managed to inherit both of these characteristics, she's a natural born artist, and has the instinctive chef within her.

4) I possess both of the characteristics, the intuitive chef, and artist.

5) My brother on the other hand, has neither of these to my knowledge, perhaps its hidden or unexpressed, but as far as I know and have seen throughout the upbringing, he does not possess these aspects.

- It is simple evolution, character traits are passed down my linage. As such, who I am and what I am and it is all imprinted within myself. The evolution then is, how do I utilize the traits? Everyone has unique aspects to themselves depending on how one was raised, environment, dynamic etc etc... it is through that lens that brings forth the next evolution. Whether I decide to utilize those skills, and natural born traits is entirely up to me. I can either use it or lose it. Luckily enough, I had the burning desire in my upbringing, and using what I was gifted with feels natural.

A simple example is, if a bird was born with wings, does it decide to use the wings? or does it turn the other way and decide to use it's legs for survival? The difference lies exactly within those parameters. A bird using it's natural born given gift is to use its wings to fly and survive. But, to dispose them and use its legs instead, running around attempting to find food makes its life 10 times more difficult.

To make what's (in)-visible, going (in) is what's required. Life has its ways, and it can be experienced in whatever ways desired. Whether it is being, easy or hard, the choice is ours to be made.

Choose wisely friends,
-Love, TN